February: A Beautiful Month
February is such a beautiful month, we get to highlight Black excellence and heritage and celebrate love all around. I live in New England so the temperature is quite frosty and very nippy, both in the weather and also poking out of my shirt! So cold but that is winter and it’s invigorating! I am so excited about all the gorgeousness around us. I just personally love to celebrate. I will never turn down a reason to say “happy __” because why wouldn’t we want to give this life a party? Life can be so difficult and demanding and poopy but when a holiday is coming up that anticipation /hits/. I’m someone who just loves a placebo. You tell me something will work, it will work because I believe that if I just force myself to think things will be ok, they will be. I am the female Chris Trager from Parks and Rec with bangs and round glasses. If I don’t let the sad in and only focus on being a cute, productive, hit-the-ground-running babe then I can do anything.
However, this first part was written maybe a week before the following part.
BUT! Here’s a sexi little 180 tho:
If I’m being honest, I’ve been walking on the gloomier part of the sidewalk and it has prevented me from creating. I can’t stop crying, puking, and pooping, (stay tuned for a future post where I talk about normalizing and representing pooping + puking due to mental/physical/emotional health in our media) and just having full-on manic breakdowns. I’m all for female rage but I’m tired and I don’t think anger suits me as it does on women who see red in all its glory. I’m just trying to push myself out of this funk and that’s why celebrating love this month is all I want to do. I’m sending letters and cards to my loved ones and telling them how much I cherish them. Cuddling my cat, Moose is the highlight of any second where she isn’t turning into cooked spaghetti to slide out of my arms. I’m even journaling more and reflecting on my thoughts and feelings which is important for me to self-love and be self-aware. This is also a terrific time to celebrate Black creators and give them the flowers they deserve. Also, let’s start giving people physical flowers again. It is such a lovely, lovely gesture.
I hope you’re all able to find joy in the little things during this little month. It is full of beauty and celebration and I urge you to find something special. Don’t forget to give some love to others but also just as importantly to yourself. Spread cherishment like it’s butter on a cute little scone. Happy Black History Month + Valentine’s Day. MWAH!
